I have another friend—yes indeed, that makes two!
Jason; Jason and I had just participated in a prayer meeting, via zoom, which had driven each of us towards somber silence. Sometimes there is nothing you can say; as when the tragedy is so far beyond tragic and the crisis so far beyond the terrible of any previous experience; or the new day you long for is so very far out of reach.
The next day I asked Jason the, “What’s Next?” question. He hesitated. It seemed to me that he was trying to decide if his answer would be seen as reasonable. Finally, he just blurted it out. “For me, there is not yet a new year. We are still in the same old year.” The same old year. Dominated by covid. Racism. Violent ruptures in the body politic.
Is 2021 still 2020 for you? No new beginning. Same threats looming, or even worse. No desire whatsoever to write New Year’s resolutions. No circumstance pointing the way to hope. No dynamic, or even lethargic, ideas for putting the broken pieces back together again. Stuck. Same old same old.
I have a suggestion. Dive deep into prayer and tell God everything. If you need to, tell God off. “Come on God, you promised to prosper me and to give me a future. I just don’t see it. I can’t hear you! Life tastes flat and smells like dry rot. I am so, so, PO’d!”
Just say it. Just pray it. You won’t be the first. You certainly won’t be the worst. But you can at least be real.
If you decide to try being real with God, I would really like to know what happens next.
Please let me know, first because I am praying for you. And, I also am trying to be real as I, just like you, tell God what this life feels like to me, right now. Your experience with God may well be the encouragement I need to keep being honest to God.
What’s next? What if it is time to persistently and vehemently ask the question(s) and voraciously seek the answer(s)? Time to devour information found somewhere, anywhere, besides the internet? In the scriptures. In a well-researched book. In history. In prayer. What if it is time to wait for the answers?
My God!!! What in the creation is next??? What does love require of me in this season of seeking and waiting? Why ask the question if you are not committed to the effort it will take to search for the answers and open yourself to truth?
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