Excuse me?! That is the opposite of what most of us believe and experience. We experience God as love best when we are feeling blessed, successful, rescued or well-provided for. People write books in order to convince sufferers that God is Love even, not especially, during the bad times.
How determined are you to put all the pieces together in order to see Reality, instead of illusion? Is it important to you to learn to see the world more and more as God sees? The value of such sight, of course, is that as our vision/version of the world becomes more grounded in the truth, it becomes more and more likely that we will make life enhancing decisions.